AWKWARD ZOMBIE

OK, part of my panic was in thinking that probation meant getting kicked out of school, because everyone who ever mentioned it before just went on about PROBATION IS BAD YOU'LL RUIN YOUR FUTURE. I'm not taking any Engineering classes next semester, just education and math classes, so my GPA will be better. I can't take any music classes because I've already taken all the basic classes that I can because of my Music minor.

You're not alone, Marc. I'm workin on telling my parents about my failing grades as well. Also graduation is today, which I would have signed up to do had I known that I could still fail a class and walk the stage anyway. I don't care too much about the ceremony but I can't help but feel sad when I see all my classmates celebrating and I'm just freaking out about my future.

It's not academic probation, I'll just have to sign up for summer school and my GPA won't be high enough to stay in the Honors Program, but either way it isn't the end of the world. Today I'm just going to have to suck it up and actually finish my course evaluations so I can see my official grades... and eventually talk to my dad about it.

Turns out college isn't a cakewalk, who'd a thunk it

Failed college because I kinda just gave up.

Couldn't understand a thing in math so eventually, I just gave up and ended being 3 chapters behind everyone else.

Gonna have to block off all contact with my family if they're going to try and talk to me about how much of a waste it was because they refuse to understand my view of it, all they care about is their opinion about it.

Truth is, college might not be the thing for me because throughout all of my education I've required a lot of help with things and college tends to be very overwhelming.

This particular one requires you to be able to do it all by yourself with only limited contact with your teachers, so it's an even worse choice for me.

I am just not looking forward to everyone trying to tell me how I should have done it and I have no interest in being lectured.

I feel like a brat for wanting to do something I wanted to do, and assuming my friend didn't want to do what I wanted to do because he doesn't like playing it with me anymore. I mean, I kept promising them we'd do what they wanted, but I wanted to at least be met 50/50 and have half our play time be their game, and half mine.

My mom called me a little while ago today and told me that my dog died. I was honestly kind of expecting her to pass away soon, since she was like thirteen years old. But I'm still gonna miss my old buddy that liked to sleep all day and loved belly rubs and meeting new people and would never hurt a fly and was scared of pretty much everything and freaked out when you lightly grabbed her snout.

Aw, I'm sorry to hear that, Marcato. She sounded like a good dog. How often did you grab her snout, and how much would she freak out?

LAMENTING POOR LIFE CHOICES

my ex keeps talking about his girlfriend all the time and it makes me really upset and anxious

Tell him that.
Or stop talking to him and make some friends who aren't sucky nerds

I feel like my mom cares more about my sister's and my accomplishments than she does about us as people.

I don't know that I can say anything more about your mother than I already have without veering into offensive territory.

Marcato, it's not who you are underneath, it's what you do that defines you. - Superman

Ive noticed my mum treats both her boyfriend and the cat better than my sibling and I
Sigh.

Man, this application I just sent is showing just how much I'm scraping on my teeth by now.

I had to fix letters with ink and feather because my printer doesn't work properly anymore, I spent my last cheddar on the delivery and have only 6 cents left in my wallet - and I don't even know anymore if they are still hiring because there's no one I can call. And my resumee doesn't even look good enough for retail.

There are still a few different places I can apply to, but I'm not even sure if I should get my hopes up at all, given I'm even less successfull than last year, darn.

I really, really want to get back into drawing but almost every time I try my hands shake a lot and I don't know how to control it.

I can't seem to get past how much art school fucked me up