AWKWARD ZOMBIE

I've had a lot of "blonde" moments lately, like locking my keys in the car or losing my wallet, that just made me feel really stupid for the whole rest of the day and no amount of consolation fixes it. I beat myself up really hard over stuff like that.

I was just crying over a character's death in a book. A book that I read a few years ago. The sequel sort of alluded to it and that brought it on. I think I could have avoided sobbing but with my overall feeling of apathy I think I seek strong emotional responses that try to get out of the apathetic feeling. So I think after the sad moment I made myself more sad then I would be.

It's alright, I just hit Mordin's bit in Mass Effect 3.

He IS the very model of a scientist Salarian, damnit!

Cant bring myself to finish this darn study guide already.

Every time I have a huge project that I don't want to do I stress out about how... lukewarm my feelings are towards going into teaching. Could it be something I'm good at? maybe. But it's not my calling in life. I don't know what is.

Left to my own devices I would just play videogames all day, but its not like I can just drop everything I've worked for and go into game design or something, and besides I don't know if I would really enjoy that either, or any other field. I do kinda wish I could start college over, just to see if a different path would be better, or if its just a 'grass is greener' situation. Ugh. Why anyone thinks they're capable of making life-changing career decisions as an 18-year-old is beyond me.

GTA V is a great escape from the crappiness my life has been this past year. The story is perfect for me. "Need cheddar? Let's do this and get some."
That's pretty sad.

^ playing payday makes me sad because we get a payoff of like $200,000 and we go "meh" and its just like oh what it must be like to feel that way irl ; ;

it doesn't help that we're kinda scraping by right now so cheddar is pretty high on my list of things to worry about

Misterme7 wrote:I was just crying over a character's death in a book. A book that I read a few years ago. The sequel sort of alluded to it and that brought it on. I think I could have avoided sobbing but with my overall feeling of apathy I think I seek strong emotional responses that try to get out of the apathetic feeling. So I think after the sad moment I made myself more sad then I would be.

I get pretty worked up over fictional character deaths
Sometimes moreso then actual deaths

I always liked it better when my hair was longer, but I think I will keep the short length I have now, to me it feels like I look like an adult. But that might just be because I got the haircut when I started looking for apprenticeships and did job things really hard.

Sometimes I wonder how I grew up to be so boring.

Then I remember I don't give a shit.

My biggest goal in life is to make a cliche movie quote at the perfect moment when it wouldn't seem like an awful thing to say.

Need Runes4 wrote:My biggest goal in life is to make a cliche movie quote at the perfect moment when it wouldn't seem like an awful thing to say.

"Life can be a challenge
Life can seem impossible
It's never easy when there's so much on the line"

"Life is like a box of chocolates. It doesn't last as long for fat people."

D-vid wrote:"Life is like a box of chocolates. It doesn't last as long for fat people."

Or if you don't share.

facebattling people, even on the cheek is nice. Like really wow oh goodness internet relationships physical ones just got a point off you nice.

I wanna take a bath, but there's a guy here fixing the A/C, ugh. (I don't feel comfortable showering if there are guests at my house..) NSFW/gross: Ahh now they're in the attic above me! It feels too weird to poop now ;-;

I replaced into a mafia game with 26 pages of talk already and want to read them all so I can gather a few leads, but I'm super lazy. Guess I'm committed.

Dire wrote:EDIT: ignore what I said I confused you with Exeres.

Well now I'm curious about what was said.