Weed addiction

[EvonBekly]

Hi everyone, I'm addicted to smoking weed. It started off fairly innocent, I had never tried it and wanted to see and what do you know, it's pretty good. It was exclusively with my friends since my parents wouldn't like it and that was fine. Then as things go on I start seeing my friends less and less until the only 2 people I hang out with are massive stones. I guess I might have picked up the bad habit from them but I know it was my inadvertant decision to do so. Its been 2 and a half years since I started and I never thought it would turn out like this. Its gotten to I need it every day now, and it's all I can think about when I don't have it. I don't think of myself as that much of a smoker but I just NEED it. It's what I rely on to change my mood, and most of the time it doesn't anyway. I usually don't even feel that great of a high but my body wants it and who am I to say no? I've tried quitting, but it turns into the vicious cycle of quit-go through withdrawls-think in doing really good-smoke some weed as a treat and BAM I get right back in that slump. I know its dumb, but i always think it will make the situation that much better or I'll seem cooler or something. I just want it to change who I am and I think I'm still waiting for that to happen in the way I want it to. It has certainly done it in the way I don't want it to. I want to stop, but how? What if I go back to it again because I do actually like it sometimes? Do I ease myself off it a day at a time or just dive in? How on earth do I discipline myself? Thank you for your time 

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