AWKWARD ZOMBIE

C'mon Marcato, you and I both know you're more than just the spare.

whatchu gotta do is find another third wheel you can break off and become a bicycle with. That's what i do anyways.

Marcato wrote:I freaking hate being in large group events, because there's always that one guy who was invited, but still gets left out, and that guy is usually me. I'm not even looking to be the center of attention, I'm just looking to be included. This even happens with my friends. Last night, my school was doing an outdoor movie theater thing and showing Frozen, so my friends and I went to go get dinner before we went to see it. During dinner, there were LITERALLY PEOPLE HAVING CONVERSATIONS ON EITHER SIDE OF ME, two girls talking about wedding dresses and a guy and a girl talking about freaking I don't know what. Then we went to go see the movie, but the projector hadn't been set up yet, so everyone else was standing in a circle talking, and I get left out again. They had really loud music playing and I couldn't hear myself think, so I went inside and then just said "Screw it" and walked back to my apartment. I got to spend the rest of the night feeling like crap and realizing that everybody else in my group of friends talks constantly about how they love each other and bestfriends5ever and I'm getting tired of feeling like I'm wedging myself into conversations and friendships.

Well the way I see it is either you have to make a concerted effort to create your own conversations and relationships, or you have to get friends that you have more in common with. I mean just from the sound of what you say on here you rarely even care about what your friends are talking about or what they care about (besides superficial things like media and whatnot)

Hell, most of my friends have vastly different worldviews from me and each other, but what we have in common is that we like talking about things in constructive ways. That and we enjoy doing the same things. I mean I'm p much a social chameleon so I get along with most people if I want to. Thing is, friends are more than people you go to the movies with and hang out with from time to time. If you want that real connection, that actual relationship, you need to find people you really jive with, and put in the effort of getting to really know them. That's the rewarding thing about a relationship; they're not just people you experience with, they're people you share with.

This trip was supposed to be fun and kind of almost relaxing but now the grownups are changing plans and confusing me and aaauuuuuugh miscommunication.

When I am at work and people start shouting their order at the back of my head.

If I'm not facing you what makes you think I am ready to help you that very second, do you regularly hold conversations with the back of someones' skull???

Vax wrote:

Marcato wrote:I freaking hate being in large group events, because there's always that one guy who was invited, but still gets left out, and that guy is usually me. I'm not even looking to be the center of attention, I'm just looking to be included. This even happens with my friends. Last night, my school was doing an outdoor movie theater thing and showing Frozen, so my friends and I went to go get dinner before we went to see it. During dinner, there were LITERALLY PEOPLE HAVING CONVERSATIONS ON EITHER SIDE OF ME, two girls talking about wedding dresses and a guy and a girl talking about freaking I don't know what. Then we went to go see the movie, but the projector hadn't been set up yet, so everyone else was standing in a circle talking, and I get left out again. They had really loud music playing and I couldn't hear myself think, so I went inside and then just said "Screw it" and walked back to my apartment. I got to spend the rest of the night feeling like crap and realizing that everybody else in my group of friends talks constantly about how they love each other and bestfriends5ever and I'm getting tired of feeling like I'm wedging myself into conversations and friendships.

Well the way I see it is either you have to make a concerted effort to create your own conversations and relationships, or you have to get friends that you have more in common with. I mean just from the sound of what you say on here you rarely even care about what your friends are talking about or what they care about (besides superficial things like media and whatnot)

Hell, most of my friends have vastly different worldviews from me and each other, but what we have in common is that we like talking about things in constructive ways. That and we enjoy doing the same things. I mean I'm p much a social chameleon so I get along with most people if I want to. Thing is, friends are more than people you go to the movies with and hang out with from time to time. If you want that real connection, that actual relationship, you need to find people you really jive with, and put in the effort of getting to really know them. That's the rewarding thing about a relationship; they're not just people you experience with, they're people you share with.

I don't know if that was your intention, but it sounds like you're insinuating that I don't care about my friends.

I'm not insinuating anything. I'm suggesting that you analyze your relationships, and think about whether your friends care abut you as much as you care about them. I'm only speaking from the mostly negative comments you make about the people you hang out with. I'm not saying I know everything about you and your friends, I was just giving suggestions based on my own similar life experience and what I had gathered from you.

Vax does have a point. Don't accidentally fall into the same trap I did in High School where it turns out your "friends" only care about you slightly more than they care for their alarm clock in the morning. It's a shitty place to be.

It might explain why I always feel the need for there to be some sort of "plan", and for everyone involved to know about them.

EDIT: The quickest way to know for sure is to just quietly leave when you think they're ignoring you. If they don't even notice that you're gone, you know something's up, and as shitty as it sounds, the only "right" course of action is to find less shitty friends.

half life 2 crashes half the time i save

i just got past a really hard bit and now i have to do it again

I read a bunch of dumb comments on the internet

whyyyyy

Why the fuck doesn't Youtube show all of a channel's videos anymore

I feel like I'm being tortured

Forgot headphones and mic at mom's house, don't want to play new games without them as most majorly rely on communication and one is really loud and I don't want to disturb other people.

travelling with people in hl2 is the worst

tried to get out of the way of a turret but they blocked the fucking door so i died

Avast is being crappy. Keeps popping up about the trial ending, and randomly changing my internet settings, which disconnects me from everything for a few seconds. I'm uninstalling it and switching to something else.

Today is bullshit.

I had the one class I hate. Whenever there's a break, the teacher leaves and expects us to do exercises instead of, you know, taking a break. He did just that again, and then it turned out only two people managed to complete the first of 4 exercises, so instead of, I don't know, reexplaining the theory nobody understood, he just stressed that we should be able to do this in our sleep. Then started misexplaining other boring crap.

I said fuck that and tried filling in a form to get help finding a student job for this summer instead. But the form used stupid MS macros so I had to use someone else's computer with Office on it. Then I realized one of the required field was a PIN I could never remember and which I had written down in a text file I just happened to have deleted last week because I thought I wouldn't need it anymore. A quick search taught me the only way to get one's PIN is to fill a document with 24 different proofs of identity and send it along with a blood sample to 3 different schools and swear allegiance to the dark lord or whatever, but I remembered finding it somewhere on the college's confusing website. Except said website uses 10 different host-names so it screws with my browser's settings so everything was unnecessarily complicated. When I finally found it, I had the pleasure to learn that Office crashes every single time I try to save that goddamn form. I chose to wait until I'd be back home to do it instead.

Got out just at the right time to be sure to have the sun right in my eyes for the entire ride and be tailgated by an dangerous idiot for the last few kilometers.

Asked my father if he had found the Windows installation discs I asked him to look for back in January. Doesn't remember it.
I suggest using another Windows disc I own instead and tell him he should copy his stuff from the desktop to his laptop through the homegroup. He can't remember what the homegroup is and thinks I mean Google Drive. I try to explain it to him but he sighs and looks annoyed because, gasp, he needs to pause the stupid video he has been watching during the entire conversation while his shiny new 1080p flatscreen TV blasts annoying ads in glorious 480i like it does 24/7 because he's too daisies stupid to ever turn it off but nevertheless makes it a priority to monitor my power usage and to talk down to me about it.

Also the Internet is constantly crapping out so I'm left with offline video-games like a medieval peasant.

edit: Just as I pressed submit my father came downstairs and started a load of laundry in the loud washing machine that's just a few feet away from my bed. Why yes, I'd love to spend those last two hours before going to sleep being unable to think because of the noise, it's not like you could do that tomor--OH WAIT YOU TOTALLY CAN BECAUSE YOU SPEND EVERY DAY SITTING ON YOUR booty BROWSING FACEBOOK AND HAVE DONE SO FOR 4 MONTHS