AWKWARD ZOMBIE

Meowstic's pretty great too; I especially like the male's design.

The death of Hot Daniel has moved me in ways words cannot describe.

Math exam tonight. Trying not to let myself become convinced I will always suck at math as I study.

had to pay for both my cousin's and little bro's copy of pokmanz x n' y. They told me they'd payed them off months ago, but surprise suprise they still needed about 40 bucks. Whatevs, it's not some obscene amount of cheddar so i help the little buggers out. The reprecussions of this action are just starting to hit me. That's the last time i help anyone out with anything.

Marcato wrote:Well, it's not because of Tumblr, I've just thought Meowstic is super adorable ever since it was revealed, and Espurr's eyes are.....ummm....a little creepy to me.

Espurr is most likely based on a Scottish Fold cat, what with the ears and the big round eyes.


Meowstic's eyes aren't as round, but it would make sense if they had a similar basis.

Blitz Walrus wrote:had to pay for both my cousin's and little bro's copy of pokmanz x n' y. They told me they'd payed them off months ago, but surprise suprise they still needed about 40 bucks. Whatevs, it's not some obscene amount of cheddar so i help the little buggers out. The reprecussions of this action are just starting to hit me. That's the last time i help anyone out with anything.

Yeah, you really shouldn't have done that. Now they have the idea that they can lie to you and you'll still help them out. If they didn't have it paid off then they shouldn't have gotten the games.

Man, not only did I horribly oversleep from it, but now I also feel mentally drained and in a bad mood because of a shitty dream I had.

Dire wrote:

On that note - I actually managed to make time to draw every day I worked last week.

I had a bit of a blip yesterday where I slept most of the day - but generally I've felt better/happier/less despairing for making an effort to draw every day (and getting good results even when I've been drawing tired).

I'm fairly certain I'm going to become a caffeine addict just trying to fight back the tiredness, but if I can make this into a routine it'll be worth it.

I find it difficult to get into a drawing routine, my routine halts when I've made a mess of my desk. So then I have to motivate myself to tidy. But yay for you! Always good to see some positivity in the things that piss you off thread.

Every day of this week my Mom has picked me up from school, and took me to the mall and where-ever else because we have errands to run. And every single day she's had something rude to say to me, and made me feel terrible about myself. I hate how hypocritical she is too. To discipline me as a child she would always say "don't do that, people are looking at you. People think you're weird now because you're doing that. See that lady? She thinks you're bad now, because you're crying in public. Everybody will laugh at you if you wear things like that. People will think I'm a bad mother if you're doing things like this." And now I'm so self conscious and scared of what people say. I mean, I've gotten better at giving no ducks, but I'm still scared. Then when I scold or hiss at my parents for doing stupid things like asking every single person in the city for directions, or whatever else, because I don't want us to look stupid they yell at me.

Anyway, pretty much every day of this week my Mom's said stuff like how bad I look, how gross my hair is (style and cleanliness), using my being bullied against me (i.e. "this is why your friends think you're weird" "this is why you get made fun of, because you don't obey me"), and every single time she looks at me it's just like absolute disgust. I hate that I look like the face that discerns my every move. I snapped (well, got rustled enough to post my anger) yesterday because I saw my friend from church working at the free car/trip thing at the mall. I get really excited seeing people outside of school or usual areas, because I pretty much think: hey! I know you, and you're awesome! But my mom was rustled at me for going over there talking to him, and walked off in a huff, and scoffed/spat at me talking to him. And he seemed a little sad, but he was used to it as he works that job. I walked after her and asked her why the hell she would be so rude, and explained that he's a friend from church and has been dating another friend of mine for like a year. She got surprised and had trouble adjusting to the fact that she was wrong, saying "OH! He was? I thought you were just being nicey-nicey to him." I hate her frickin FOB phrases too. I never understood that one or "sweetie-sweetie" but basically she thought I was flirting with a complete stranger. She thinks I flirt with all my guy friends. Maybe anyone. Anytime I'm pop flyin', smiling, or laughing, it's wrong. I can't even wear what I want to, and stuff for school dress up days because she calls me "Ugly Betty" or thinks I look really stupid. I'm never good enough, and I don't want to be, but at the same time I do want to be good. I just wanna scream and cry at the top of a mountain asking why she can't accept me. /rant

My mum is a little like that, not as nasty though I'll admit. It's a 'mother knows best' thing. Even now she gets upset when I wear my work boots outside of work because they're ugly and so unfashionable. I don't take too much insult though... it's not like she's Jimmy Choo.

My mum also used to tell me off with the excuse that I was embarrassing myself or I made her look bad. I can't say that your mum will ever change. But I can say that eventually your life will be yours alone. You'll be able have your hair the way you want, dress how you want, eat ice cream for breakfast (that's bad though) eat cereal for dinner (not as bad but I'm told we shouldn't have carbs after 4pm).

Time to retire all 6 of my current passwords. Seems like one or two of them have been broken. Bah.

Dire wrote:(not as bad but I'm told we shouldn't have carbs after 4pm).

Whoever's telling you this is a liar. Time of day doesn't matter when you eat.

I feel weird, as if I'm asleep yet awake.
I can't think, agitaingly slow at taking in new information and I'm barely aware of my surroundings.

I don't like this.

Who's ready to bullshit our way through a presentation wooooooo