AWKWARD ZOMBIE

4 hours into camping.

Two fights and the rumblings of more to come.

Number 1 thing for my recovery is avoiding stress. People screaming around me does not do that.

But hey, I'm on a trip that my mom forced me to go on, for camping that I'm not up to for, an event that I'm not prepared for, and feeling crummy because they can't stop 5 minutes and discuss things without lying, backstabbing, just coming out and saying " we should do this" rather than "what should we do? Wrong choice."

But hey. This trip is about ~me~. I'm the one "practically" dragging everyone out here for this event that I've given up on and now kinda hate because the fun is gone for now.

So I'm not allowed to be stressed. My tense back pain is just me looking for attention. I'm trying to keep them from having opinions and pretending everything is okay. They need to fight around me and the children. Can't take 5 steps away. I should be pop flyin' that they've given up so much for me.

No. Fuck that.

I will burn this trip to the ground if it means getting them to leave me the fuck alone. Want to keep me from going to the event? Good. I don't care. If going means pretending to be grateful for being rustled on, then I'll gladly give it up.

I'm not doing this anymore. It's affecting my health, and by god, I deserve to be a bit selfish for a change. It's my health.

Fast food jobs are the most soul-crushing thing in the world, I am the most weak-willed person in the world, and when you combine those you get a guy having an emotional breakdown while cleaning out fryers.

Unrelated but my laptop's still down and until I can fix it I'm stuck on my 3DS and this is the worst browser ever, besides every other consoles.

One man's soul crushing experience is another man's happiness I guess? This job is bodaciously the highlight of my day.

On topic, though: People have just kinda given up talking to me, it feels like. People I would very much like to talk to.

Where do these giant flying ant wasp things even come from and why won't they leave my house

I was so sleepy this morning that it never occured to me that today was supposed to be my day off.
Ughh I wanna go back to bed.

I am sitting in a room reading 42C
thats 107 for you murrikans.

shoot me.
ima ngry
and ot
and sweaty
and If uckig hate summer AUUUGH

I'm so tired it hurts but it's too early to go to bed

The stupid lady that does the stupid bookkeeping gave me her stupid cold. So now my head feels all stupid and squishy.

Why is Google Drive so useless

all I want is a public link that works like Dropbox's

My internet has been super tanking today,this is the worst

If I turn my volume up any more my ears will explode but I can still hear my annoying-booty "friends" playing stupid Guitar Hero in the background
Jesus Christ

and my dad wonders why I'm so anti-social
I just want to play Smash Bros.~

fuck damnit
I forgot to request my friend as a roommate and now it's two days past the deadline

I hate having to handle important things because I always forget or have no idea what the fuck to do

case in point: apparently I accepted loans? I don't recall ever hitting accept on any loans. How the fuck do I cancel this. How the fuck do I tell the college about my other scholarship
how the fuck do I do anything

People who throttle their upload speed on torrents to 1 kB/s but are all too pop flyin' to set their download speed to unlimited.

TerraChimaera wrote:If I turn my volume up any more my ears will explode but I can still hear my annoying-booty "friends" playing stupid Guitar Hero in the background
Jesus Christ

and my dad wonders why I'm so anti-social
I just want to play Smash Bros.~

haha just what the fuck

Probably just an organized play-date gone sour