AWKWARD ZOMBIE

I feel exhausted today. I couldn't sleep last night before my test and I'm worried I might not have done as good as I thought. Didn't really help that I got one of my papers back and I just wanted to read the grade but he hid it amongst comments of how disappointed he was in me and how it was one of the worst papers he read. Whoops.

I was also late to it because even though the only non-residents that need to be on campus on Friday morning are people with 9am classes, everyone was here, and there were only like 2 testing periods today. And people got into accidents more than any other day. And people insisted on turning left when they're not allowed to any more and they're fucking faculty.

After my test, I had to go to the post office, get my car inspected, pick up something to make for the party I was going to this evening, and then get gas. I was expecting to get home by about 12:30 in time to cook stuff, catch the mailman, eat, and take a 4 hour nap before the party. Everything went smoothly until I got to the store and they didn't have the stuff I needed. So then I had to change my plan and I wasn't used to the store and I was hungry and I had been awake for nearly 24 hours on 6 hours of sleep. I finally got out of there, went to go get gas, and there was a huge line. Finally the line moved me to be next in line to a pump, and the girl at the pump decides to top off her tank while texting, and dumps about a gallon of gas on the ground. She quickly looks around, hops in her car, and drives away. The people have to clean it up before I could use the pump. Finally got my gas, went home, nearly got into an accident twice when people tried to merge into my lane while I was in it, got home, walk in the door, step in dog shit.

Clean it up, clean up 2 puddles of dog piss, look at the clock.

It's nearly 2 pm and the party was at 7 and I had at least an hour of cooking to do and I really needed sleep.

Talked to friends and kinda broke down from the stress and cried a bit since the party was the one thing that was going to make everything better but I just didn't think I could cook and go at all.

I ended up napping, woke up at 6 with a headache, and rolled over, upset that I wasn't going to go and that there were a few people that were going to graduate and I wouldn't see them before they left. Worse, I spent cheddar on getting stuff for the party and ended up not going, so I'm not sure how mom feels after me making a fuss over it (the things I bought were things we'll eat though, so it's not really too big of a deal).

I feel like I've done nothing but disappoint people today.

I think too much.

We all do, Great Handsome Oppressor, we all do.

Gah, the frizzly column in the middle of my screen is getting to be increasingly annoying whenever I"m trying to draw.

I hate rendering. SO FUCKING MUCH. It never fails, someone will always kick me off the computer I'm rendering on.

Ill probably have to spend all day working on stuff and I wont get to spend any time with the bf or my friends. The weekend is usually the only chance I have to unwind but I guess I wont be able to today.

Welp, got about 4 hours to do about as many pages. I guess I've had worse. Let's go.

I'm so tired. Can't wait to have tomorrow off, I feel so dead.

I can't sleep. I was texting the bf but I think he's asleep now. So now I'm just awake and lonely.

My social worker wont pay my grad fees.
The entire rrason I have him is so he can do stuff like tgis because I dont live with my parents.

There goes my prom ticket cheddar. Guess i'll just spend that day and night with Taruta and go get food or see iron Man.

My mom's workplace needed temp help for $10/h, so she got my roommate it.
Apparently ten minutes in she wants to kill me/herself because she is working there full time for two weeks, and she thought it was for a day (I did too, but I thought more $10/h would be awesome?) and she is just freaking out and trying not to cry.
Sigh.

i went on my dad's computer last night because i was anxious and couldn't sleep and all i did was log onto steam and twitter and i spent about over an hour just messing around on them until i felt better enough to go back to bed but suddenly today my dad's computer won't start up. it's an old, out of date computer so nobody should be surprised but because my brother told my mom i was last using it it's suddenly all my fault and i must of done something to it and how dare i use the computer, etc

seriously it's such an old computer and whenever i try to explain that to anybody it's suddenly "oh we know better than you!" and i'm probably going to have to pay for it to get fixed now or something

Soooo tired. I wish my day was over already.

Even though yesterday wasn't TOO horrible, my roommate refuses to go to work today.
This job is amazing, a lot of cheddar for little work, but noooo. She was excited for this job months ago, now she has it and turns into a child. Pouting, saying I don't wanna, etc.
I want to also her into pieces. It is $660 NET for two weeks of opening mail!

i need someone to do my makeup when i cosplay

i don't wear makeup at all normally so i never learned how to put it on and i want to bypass the "makeup sucks coz idk what i'm doing" stage

it seems suddenly all my cosplays require makeup of some kind and my next one needs eyeliner and i REALLY don't know how to apply that ; ;

Computer over heated this morning LOST ALL MY TABS AND EXTENSIONS IN GOOGLE CHROME FOR WHATEVER REASON.