AWKWARD ZOMBIE

But what is the price? We've been living off of Mac & Cheese for this whole week

I'm not really sure. Maybe a bit more expensive than Kraft? But not by a whole lot, I think, since it is still box macaroni & cheese.

And again it would still cut down a bit on the cost if you had to use it long term because you don't have to get butter and milk if you're really hurting for cash

steam won't display a notification if anyone comes online

like i click on the box and hit okay but it never works

the box like unclicks itself

I was feeling okay for a little while, but then I just started feeling all overwhelmed again.

Looks like I am really going to have to break out the bat.
I am at least going to bring a knife to our second meeting. I am getting my cheddar. I am tired of these delays. They are giving me the keys to the apartment by Friday. Or else.

Throw a bucket of spiders on them.
That'll really show'em.

getting married is also a great way of procuring mac n cheese. my sister bought me like 10 boxes for some reason



i've had a bad mental health day because of some anxiety etc and im just glad i'm off the rest of the week and this weekend is matsuri

im so exhausted

Ugh I have to catch the bus home tonight and I've got nothing to eat still.
These frozen bu8rger patties mom keeps buying are tasting worse by the minute and aren't even filling.
Dad's too busy doing whatever it is he's doing tonight to pick me up from work and get me some food, so instead of catching a ride and being home by 10:30ish I get to catch a bus and be home by 11:30ish.
I normally don't complain about it but my hip has been killing me lately and it hurts to walk.

Game Angel wrote:

Somebody wrote:

Game Angel wrote:#1 way to lose your friends: continually assert you're right, never giving a single inch, and become mad when at said friends when people try to offer you help. you know better all the time, and age and experience mean nothing.

Holy hell, you just described my friend's attitude for the past year and a half. I've been trying to nudge him in the right direction as subtly as I can, but he doesn't change. I'm probably going to slowly inch myself away from him because his bullshit was the reason his former roommates had to leave.

Yep
What's worse is that the person in question used to be okay, it's just that they ended up changing, I'm not completely sure why, but it's definitely for the worse and they cannot for the life of them see that. Maybe when they lose most of their friends, and the only people around are the ones they changed for to please in the first place, they'll finally see it.


I'd rather not cut off all ties with them right away, because there's some things that we USED to do that I liked, and I'd rather not end it all on a sour note. But I feel like I'm in a cycle of emotional abuse or something, every time I think "well, they haven't done anything bad in a while, they haven't emotionally manipulated the shit out of me lately, knowingly or not, maybe they've changed"
and that...is NEVER the case as I find out just about once every week. They say they're not in the mood to do anything fun, but they're always up for arguing with friends! Hell, are we even friends anymore? Why do they have to be so goddam defensive? Guh why am I still angry

That's basically my friend, except his version of emotional manipulation never works, trying to have fun is video games all day every day with a movie if he feels like it (even though his taste and mine are pretty different to the point where that's kind of lame), and I question my friendship with him every two weeks or whenever he does something that I'd have hit him for if I was present.

...
Man, why am I still friends with him?

I'm tired and sad for very simple reasons.

My counselor's been too busy with college scholarships, working on students' schedules for the next year, and etc. I think I'll just take my friend's suggestion and go sit down and talk with someone other than my assigned counselor. Either that, or seek help from a non-school related professional.

I don't usually post super personal stuff like this, but holy shit I just heard something tell me something really rude and not nice at all. When I'm depressed I get bad thoughts, but wow where the hell did this one come from.

Noff: You know what you could do?
Me: What's that?
Bad Thought: You could try shutting the f. up.

Just felt the need to jot this down somewhere.

man listening to a christian radio station during these gay marriage hearings can really angry up the blood

Chinmaster wrote:man listening to a christian radio station during these gay marriage hearings can really angry up the blood

Why are you listening to christian radio anyway? Its where human decency comes to die

I was just flipping through channels and landed on it

also I sometimes listen because I want to feel righteous indignation

This evening hasn't been too bad, but I feel annoyed anyways. Got texted in class that I was on my own for dinner because my Aunt doesn't want me or my dad around (mainly my dad, but he'd bitch if I could go and he was excluded). She's done this the past 3 nights and it's pissing me off because Grandma leaves Friday and I'm probably going to be busy tomorrow, so I can't even go see her before she leaves because my aunt's being a bitch to dad, who really couldn't give a shit.

Then, I confirm that me, dad, and mom will be eating together (since mom's moved back into our house for now) with mom, and we'll need to make dinner for 3, and we don't really have anything out (again, thanks aunt for giving us 1 hour's notice!). I get home, ready to cook up the chicken I was saving for spaghetti for dinner, and dad already cooked a pizza, because he was hungry. A pizza usually feeds only 2 people at that size, and that was the last of them. So I ended up heating up some egg rolls for myself, no biggie, but, goddamnit dad, you could at least see what other people are planning beforehand. And for you being "tired" of pizza yesterday, you seemed pretty daisies adamant about gobbling it up today.

Also, finally mom and dad could tolerate eachother's presence enough to file the taxes (though dad kept freaking out about the return going down and up because they were "taking away" his return), which I needed filed to file my FAFSA so I could get financial aid. I've been harping on them since January about this, and they finally did it in time for me to do it 4 days before the deadline. I guess that beats being a week late for FAFSA like the past 2 years, but, goddamn guys, I'm not taking the rap for this, and for as much shit as I've been given for "costing" you guys so much cheddar, you sure seem uninterested in saving $8,000.

I just, augh. I need to drown my misery a bit.