Things that make you sad.

[Winchester]

I still have flashbacks to when I was in college almost two years ago. They happen less often than they used to but still

[TheStranger]

My mind is incresingly consumed by what ifs

[Nachalnik]

i don't have any goals or dreams for the future anymore so my life is completely aimless and it's really hard to deal with sometimes

[Cynical Slob]

My mind is incresingly consumed by what ifs

ooh man i hate that stuff
especially after i've done something bad on the day and i spend the next week wishing it didn't happen, or chastising myself for not doing something else

[Nachalnik]

my friend is being nice and trying to find me hobbies and things to do but he keeps asking why don't i don't do knitting or cross stitch anymore and i just don't have the heart to say i only learnt how to knit and cross stitch to make him things and i don't have a reason to do either anymore so just say "i don't know" or "i don't like it anymore" instead

[Riku]

Do you like doodling? You could try just playing around with that and then practicing drawing. That's a great way to spend time.

What is something productive that you like? Not that you necessarily have to be putting eight hours a day into it, but what is a task that you like to do?

[corsica]

(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧why am i so fat and ugly*:･ﾟ✧

[Lotharu]

Broke down. Hate myself. Don't really want to live anymore.

[Vax]

Loth I know things might seem bad for you, but you should know plain as day that that's no way to think.

You've supported your friends all this time with all the stupid bullshit that's been goin on, I think you should also look for some support yourself. Do what you can to make it through what's going on, and find a way up and out of the hole you might find yourself in, because life's worth living.

[The Willow Witch]

My brother is very sick right now and he cant get into the hospital right now because the wait is to long.

My mom is very hysterical and I think the best thing to do is to hop on a train and go take care of him.

[Lotharu]

You've supported your friends all this time with all the stupid bullshit that's been goin on, I think you should also look for some support yourself. Do what you can to make it through what's going on, and find a way up and out of the hole you might find yourself in, because life's worth living.

I only have three real friends. Two of them are nowhere near emotionally stable enough for me to talk to them about this stuff, the other is not using any electronics aside from Google for finals.
I'm not suicidal, I just don't really want to be around anymore causing everyone pain.

[Vax]

What about family or something? Any reliable family or family friends you could talk to over the phone or internet or you could visit or something?

You really should consider trying to alleviate your situation. I doubt you're "causing everyone pain" to the degree you might think you are.

[TerraChimaera]

ugggggh i feel so shit right now
everyone is a fucking asshole to me

[Lotharu]

What about family or something? Any reliable family or family friends you could talk to over the phone or internet or you could visit or something?

You really should consider trying to alleviate your situation. I doubt you're "causing everyone pain" to the degree you might think you are.

I've never had that type off relationship with my parents, I just can't open up to them no matter how hard I try. We don't really stay connected with anyone else except for my grandparents, but they've got enough going on. My sister wouldn't really be able to understand everything or help on any way, I love her but she has some learning disabilities.
My roommate is like a sister to be but she hasn't been taking her medicine, so she is getting mad at every little thing so that won't work.

Every time someone follows my advice recently they have just ended up worse than if they wouldn't have. I used to be so good with people and arguments and knowing what to say, it was my role in any group I was in. Now I am terrible in all of those things. I don't bring anything to the table anymore.

[SaintCrazy]

Maybe you need a break from being the advice-giver in your friend group. Sometimes all people really need is someone that can be there for them and listen - that's good enough, if you want to help someone who's in need.

Also, it seems like you could afford to trouble yourself less with the problems of others and focus on yourself a bit. You have enough on your plate without taking on their burdens as well. If you need to, ask for some space, or even ask them to switch roles with you so you can vent a bit.

I would think your friends, even if they are emotionally unstable, would understand that you're stuggling alongside them. They will probably understand what you're going through - as long as they don't take the blame on themselves, they will be fine.