AWKWARD ZOMBIE

Nachalnik, hang in there, okay? It hurts, but I think you made the right choice by cutting off contact with him, because you deserve better than this person and this pain. Take some time, it's normal to be upset, but don't forget it's a new beginning now that you're free of this person's lies, and that you have many other people to meet

i know but it's hard to accept that i'll never see someone who was in my life so much again

i end up remembering all the really good times we had together or i feel lonely because i don't have anyone else to hang around with and then i feel like shit again

i don't know

Runes you have two arms for a reason.

And Nachal you wouldn't be alone if you talked to people more! I know you added a bunch of us on the forum on steam, which I'll get to soon promise, but trust me you've got plenty of friends here.

It always sucks to cut someone out of your life, and possibly worse (in some ways) if they cut you out of theirs, especially since you feel that a part of your life is gone, or wasted with someone to no end result, but these things happen and lead us to new opportunities.

I can say that you might regret some of the things in your life, but ultimately, they make you who you are right now. And you should never regret being you.

You're a good person Nacha, and you deserve better.

I know it hurts Nachal, but it's better that he's our of your life. You deserve and can do better.

Man, I just realized how hard waiting 2 years for a guy is going to be. I think if I didn't know I was waiting, it would be a lot easier to do.
Just knowing is making this really hard.

I don't mean that I'm going to sleep around, since the only thing that would that in the area is my hand, but it just get's me depressed knowing how long I have to wait to be in this relationship for real.

If you're both agreed to be exclusive, your relationship is already real.

I feel like I should tell my ex-boyfriend that I miss him and that I forgive him because I do but I don't know if that's the right thing to do or not

It's not.

I feel like I won't get better if I don't though.

You will definitely not get better by forgiving someone who've done nothing to earn such forgiveness. You'll only make it clear they can get away with behaving so shamefully and you deserve better than that.

Are you sure you've actually forgiven him? Or are you just lonely and making up excuses to talk to him?

Colour me cynical, but I think it's the latter.

I think you might be right.

But my ex-boyfriend was my best friend and all we did was talk all day and play video games and now he's gone there's just this big empty void.

Like, I could talk to him about things I couldn't talk about with anybody else and he was always there and I guess I'm just missing him a lot.

I don't know.

Forgiving him is all fine and dandy. It's a real mature thing to do.

But it wont make things the way they were.

I know.

I'm going to miss it a lot but I don't want things to be how they were before.

At least I don't think I do.

Urghhh....I just don't know what to do. This is really confusing.