AWKWARD ZOMBIE

Parents are gearing up for a legal case against each other. Fun.

Going to miss another deadline for my design class because I have no idea what I'm doing and have no motivation to work on it. Like... I dunno I would've been fine if I had the week to work on it but apparently I need several pages done over the weekend, and he decided not to tell us this until Friday? No, I'm barely sane enough as it is with my weekends.

I just... It's so frustrating when i know I can do well in my classes if I just had enough time to get my shit together... why am I so shitty at anything that has a deadline.

Oh also I have a test tomorrow I haven't studied for in a completely unrelated class. Yaaaay

Legal case was delayed because judge shenanigan. Hurray tense months!

Ah daisies, Eddie Guerrero's death is really getting to me. I'm gonna go watch some of his old matches and have a good cry.

Lie, Cheat, Steal mang

Is Chavo still wrestling? I basically haven't hugely kept up with things since his death.

Yup. He's gotten pretty good too. He's been showing up in Lucha Underground lately.

I'm feeling oddly not up to baking lately and I have no idea why. Even though I have a vendor event where I'll be selling cookies tomorrow.

I think I might be depressed. It seems like nothing I do makes me pop flyin' anymore. I fake it at school and stuff so people don't worry, but it's getting hard to do even that lately. What makes it worse is that my problems really aren't that bad compared to a lot of other people and I feel bad for letting things get me down like this. I think I might talk to my school's librarian about it. She's really cool and stuff and I feel like she wouldn't judge me for it.

Perhaps it would be better to talk to your school's counselor? They would probably be able to help you more.

My thinking is that the librarian would tell the school counselor. That would make it easier for me. I barely know the counselor and it would be hard for me to approach her about it. I'm really close with the librarian and she would know to go tell the counselor and stuff.

I've seriously only heard from and/or seen two of my old church friends in over a month.

Me and my best friend had a disagreement yesterday and then he started insulting me so now we're not friends anymore. Kinda sucks, but I've kinda felt for a while that our friendship wasn't going to last much longer.

I wish I was dead, but I fear death just as much as I fear life. I dont even feel human most of the time, just an observer, watching everyone else. Only alcohol makes me feel even momentarily pop flyin'.

Horay for vague existential gloom. I don't have all that much to feel bad about. Life could be a lot worse. Knowing that isn't making me feel any better though,

Shit, I'm feeling depressed and lonely again. I thought I was done with this.