AWKWARD ZOMBIE

Got a b on my report card. Checked the week before the 9 weeks ended and I had an A. I didn't miss a day and didn't do bad on any of my assignments so I have no idea why I got one.

Sometimes teachers have to correct everyone's grade to fit a normative distribution (ie a third of the students between 70 and 90%, not more than a fourth over 90% etc) because that's what the administration expects. You might have been downgraded because of that.

So Erik told me why he ACTUALLY broke up: He was sick of my clinginess

Something that I TRIED NOT TO BE FOR THIS RELATIONSHIP



I don't know wether to be sad or angry

^ honestly from your posts in the relationship thread i'm kinda not surprised x: you should probably focus on growing up some before getting into another relationship.

Misterme7 wrote:No matter what I do, my right big toe just keeps on getting infected again and ingrown again. I had fucking surgery on it, this isn't supposed to happen. Might have to have that thing where they keep one side of your toe from growing. I don't want to deal with this anymore.

my cousin had such awful problems with it they actually took her toenails OFF completely. she has very bizarre feet now, but no more ingrown toenails!

We went to King's Island today for something and it was great when we were doing stuff. But then we slowed down and I discovered I can be surrounded by people and feel alone. No one was particularly talking to me. I think the reason I felt so bad is that someone who I used to like(might still, from how I felt. I don't really know) was being really friendly to this one person she met once before and didn't even remember she knew him. I barely existed. I rarely exist much to all but my closest friends in group situations. He's really outgoing and I'm just not. I want to talk with people and have people know me but I'm just not good enough at talking and don't have the bravery required either. I didn't want to tell them because they would make an effort to talk to me more and it would seem fake and I felt ungrateful because it was supposed to be fun but I just stopped feeling it and got really philisophical(which basically means depressed. Whenever I start contemplating things like life I'm usually depressed.).

So, I used to follow this flash artist on Newgrounds. Turns out he died a while back.

That's always sad to hear about. Who was it, might I ask?

Lord, but there's several...

Wow I sure love getting depressed for no reason

Vax wrote:That's always sad to hear about. Who was it, might I ask?

The VGDC guy, the one who made the Rise Of the Mushroom Kingdom series among other things

Brock from Pokémon's sister got in a bad car wreck, hit by a drunk driver on the highway. She's okay but for some nasty bruises, but the car was totalled.

I can't shake this feeling that something bad is about to happen, and it's kinda draining me.

The past couple of days I've been kinda stressed over nothing, and I'm still getting over my sickness from last week, so I just feel like a moody zombie, and I'm constantly worried if I'm being harsh on people even when I'm probably not.

Doesn't help that there's been some family tension and bullshit welling back up because well, we can't exactly stop being petty months ago when this stuff was actually relevant, can we?

I just feel gloomy.

Deadline for registration for online classes at a local college is coming up and I decided to sign up (I want to start with something easy for me like U.S History to get used to working again), but the thought of going back to school gave me a panic attack.

It's been two fucking years since the physical and emotional drain I went through when I was in art school and it still affects me. I feel pathetic.

Boy it sure is fun to relapse into not being over someone.

Took a test in school which required me to reflect upon myself and my life.

I am currently in a state of depression from it, it isn't comfortable having to face the facts like that.