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lately i've felt really lonely i guess

i was looking through one of my sites and saw some stuff an old friend had given me and now i just really really miss all my friends from this other forum :[ i still talk to a couple, but most of them we just kinda drifted away or drama happened (that didn't involve me,) and i missed a chance to get their contact info before they left. and i hate it. i miss them so much.

i just kinda realized all of a sudden that i don't have anyone i really talk to on the forums anymore. i am just kinda here and i talk to everyone but nobody at the same time. i miss when i would go into chat rooms and dick around and stay up all night chatting with my friends

u____u

shazza wrote:lately i've felt really lonely i guess

i was looking through one of my sites and saw some stuff an old friend had given me and now i just really really miss all my friends from this other forum :[ i still talk to a couple, but most of them we just kinda drifted away or drama happened (that didn't involve me,) and i missed a chance to get their contact info before they left. and i hate it. i miss them so much.

i just kinda realized all of a sudden that i don't have anyone i really talk to on the forums anymore. i am just kinda here and i talk to everyone but nobody at the same time. i miss when i would go into chat rooms and dick around and stay up all night chatting with my friends

u____u

The last time I seriously logged on to MSN for a genuine conversation was 2006. I know what you mean about other forums though, I took the opportunity to log on to my old favourite just now - thanks for reminding me!

shazza wrote:lately i've felt really lonely i guess

i was looking through one of my sites and saw some stuff an old friend had given me and now i just really really miss all my friends from this other forum :[ i still talk to a couple, but most of them we just kinda drifted away or drama happened (that didn't involve me,) and i missed a chance to get their contact info before they left. and i hate it. i miss them so much.

i just kinda realized all of a sudden that i don't have anyone i really talk to on the forums anymore. i am just kinda here and i talk to everyone but nobody at the same time. i miss when i would go into chat rooms and dick around and stay up all night chatting with my friends

u____u

I remember an old forum I joined. I enjoyed it, but it was for a game I stopped playing so I didn't get on the forum. I checked back once and I found out that an old friend died in a car wreck. I miss them but I can't motivate myself to play the game or use its forum.

Misterme7 wrote:

shazza wrote:lately i've felt really lonely i guess

i was looking through one of my sites and saw some stuff an old friend had given me and now i just really really miss all my friends from this other forum :[ i still talk to a couple, but most of them we just kinda drifted away or drama happened (that didn't involve me,) and i missed a chance to get their contact info before they left. and i hate it. i miss them so much.

i just kinda realized all of a sudden that i don't have anyone i really talk to on the forums anymore. i am just kinda here and i talk to everyone but nobody at the same time. i miss when i would go into chat rooms and dick around and stay up all night chatting with my friends

u____u

I remember an old forum I joined. I enjoyed it, but it was for a game I stopped playing so I didn't get on the forum. I checked back once and I found out that an old friend died in a car wreck. I miss them but I can't motivate myself to play the game or use its forum.

Ive had to go through Forum Abandonment twice now, and leave behind friends I made as the forum winds down, people lose interest and scatter to the winds. Its weird how important an online community can become to you, and yet you just have to move on within a few years.

i've only gone through it once and i nearly cried when i found a link to the forum and realized that there were still people therebut the last post was like 4 months previous.

the other forum i'm on isn't dead by any means, it's just that about a year ago a lot of drama happened (the admin hadn't been seen in a long time so a group of oldies made a forum of their own to move to just in case admin never came back and got accused of elitism and it was a huge ordeal,) and pretty much all MY friends left. there's still plenty of people there but they weren't people i ever really got close to, and quite a few newcomers who are younger than me so i can't really talk to them about my life without there being a gap there lol

weh, it just sucks :<

Mentioning my current cheddar problems to Crush Bandicoot made me cry, because only then I realised how much it's actually stressing me out.

I'm tired of nothing positive involving other people actually working out for me.

My grandpa died last night. Fuck.

I'm sorry for your loss Zanoushe.

Thanks. I'm kind of dealing with it by not dealing with it, if that makes sense.

I don't know how to deal with death, and I feel like a horrible person for it because I just act indifferent with a hint of sad.


But people hug me, and I don't hug them back. I can't. I would rather tear my arms of than make physical contact. I am pretty sure people hate me for it.

That's kind of how I deal with it, too. I really didn't want to be touched yesterday, and I still don't.

Feeling vaguely depressed about nothing in particular again :/
This just happens a once in a blue moon on weekends, but whatever.

All of my dumb screw-ups will not leave me alone today. It's like I can't get through a day without losing something or being late to something or forgetting about something else.

I just don't feel like I'm worth much right now.

KingTsaiko wrote:I don't know how to deal with death, and I feel like a horrible person for it because I just act indifferent with a hint of sad.


But people hug me, and I don't hug them back. I can't. I would rather tear my arms of than make physical contact. I am pretty sure people hate me for it.

On a similar note

Guess whose dog has had a gigantic cancerous tumor which has been slowly killing him and he totally won't last much longer

Me
*cries*