AWKWARD ZOMBIE

I think my ex is ignoring me and it sort of feels like a slap in the face after all our talking about staying friends.

Pretty sure I was the only one not invited to a party with the trumpet section tonight.

Thanks guys.

My Eggman plushie that I bought off eBay still hasn't arrived, makes me a sad panda that I can't give him lots of cuddles

i'm not really a good girlfriend sometimes.

My ex unfollowed me on tumblr and didn't respond to any messages, after all our talks about being friends

She didn't even say goodbye. I don't know whether to cry or be angry.

All I know is I'm scared to be angry.

Manager at work basically tells me every shift i work with her that im not good enough.
This sucessfully makes me cry every shift
I get it. Im bad.

Dumb job firing me in april/may, I would've sat together with Great Handsome Oppressor this monday.
We would even have the new JoJo fightan to celebrate his birthday to the max
What a cruel world

Think I'm going through another phase thing. Lately I've been getting depressed an awful lot. I don't really have many friends. the few close ones I had moved six hours away for school, another found a new group of friends, so she doesn't really need me anymore.

I've been trying to talk to different people, but really I just feel like I'm bothering them

Community college doesnt really have much of a community, haven't really made any friends through that.

I feel like if I disappeared off the face of the earth, no one would notice for a month, and when they did it'd be met with an "aw man" and a shake of the head.

Mom's been recently very giving with cheddar, coming up with things I've done to help out with and giving me cheddar to do stuff, and going back to previous stuff she made me pay for and giving me back the cheddar for it.

Meanwhile a few friends are having cheddar issues and there's not much I can do because my mom watches my finances like a hawk and wouldn't approve of me giving cheddar or buying things for friends she doesn't know (I'm shocked that she actually let me send my old 3DS to a friend).

I have stuff I kinda want to buy (though I'm indecisive as fuck), but it feels shitty to do this when people I care about have to worry about paying for funeral bills and getting kicked out of their house.

Today was supposed to be my first day volunteering at a cat shelter

I ended up having a panic attack over having a responsibility outside of home and decided to not go today and try again next weekend.

All I was supposed to do was help socialize the cats so I feel like a big bag of shit right now

Maaaan loads of my friends are moving away.

Hopefully I'll make more once my course starts I guess.

Also I have to do a load of wanky ~self identity~ pieces as like pre-course homework and I just wanna study and get good at draw :(

I hate being in a long-distance relationship so much
I have just so much love to give to Erik but he's all the way in New York and text-cuddling just doesn't cut it

If I went to New York and stayed with Erik all of next summer (or at least Christmas break) I would bodaciously be the happiest person in the world I swear to god I'm going to start saving for a plane ticket asdfghjkl

But don't pay attention to my problems they're probably not as bad as yours

i e-mailed my mom last night asking for advice about what to do about my ex but i think she ignored most of my e-mail because she only addressed one throwaway comment i made right at the very end of my e-mail and nothing else.

Aww Terra, this is a thread where you complain bout stuff freely, don't feel bad about using it for what it was made for!

Yeah I was just really upset sorry
I guess I just gotta tough it out until one of us buys a house~