AWKWARD ZOMBIE

I hope you had some irn bru

I have work every day I don't have school so for this next 5 months straight I will not have time for myself at all.

Accidentally closed a Skype call chat when I only wanted to mute the mic. Other person was asleep so I can't open the call again bawww.

can't get anyone to go with me to the movies. It's probably cuz they're all busy n shit, but i can't shake the feeling that they all hate me.

I thought I didn't really hurt myself last night when I fell at work.

Turns out I was wildly mistaken.

That's not good. You talking broken bone/internal injury hurt?

It's sort of making me sad that I can't enjoy my tablet anymore because of roomie, that I'm letting such a cocksucker ruin my fun. But man I felt really special for my art once, and then he's just smearing his obese booty all over it.

My mother's father died thursday.

I'm sorry Runes. :<



I'm so scared to go to school tomorrow. I'm not ready for everyone to belittle me about not looking older. I'm scared to hang out with my old friends, but then I start convincing myself that I need to hang out with them because they're not all bad. I seriously cry every time I think about going to school. I don't ever want to talk about Noff or my relationship to my friends because they'll just refer to him as The Canadian, or make fun of how he's from Canada or his looks and I hate it. I think I'm going to go to the councilors and firmly suggest I get counseling because my parents lied and didn't get me any of it this summer. I just wanna act like a kid, be pop flyin', and sometimes be taken seriously about things. This is old news, but it hurt so much that I remember it sometimes; I hate how my friends asked what I wanted to be and I said "voice actress or animator" and they looked at me like I was stupid and said "Okay, realistically" and I revised it with dentist and they seemed pleased. I feel so conflicted right now I hate school, grades, not being good enough, and everything ugh.

You shouldn't have to do anything to please these people. Being a voice actress might not be an obvious field, but the job does exist. Even better that you want to animate. If you can animate, you can voice your own projects, killing two birds with one stone.

And don't try and convince yourself people 'aren't that bad' they should be the one's to convince you by being nice to you and respecting your life choices. You deserve better.


I'm sorry for your loss, Runes. Hope you and your family are doing okay.

Sorry that you're having to deal with another loss so soon, Runes - I hope you're dealing with it all okay.


Don't make excuses for people, Angelic. If people choose to be assholes instead of being supportive of your choices then they're really not worthy of your time. It's also not easy to develop an iron skin in regard to people making fun of you for this and that, but it helps if you can see things in a more positive light i.e: "Why would you possibly have a problem with Tuxedo Mask being Canadian? Canadians are awesome and if you can't see that - that's your problem, sister!" or... something like that.

If you want to be an animator/voice actress, pursue it - I personally regret not believing in my aspirations to become a graphic artist/illustrator - instead I went along with other people's opinions about me being 'more suited' to becoming a three dimensional designer. I've figured out/found the resolve to pursue what I really want to do now, but I often feel like I'm lagging behind the people who've committed their younger years to pursuing their dreams.

Thank you all. I apreciate it.

I don't feel like copy-pasting my whole dumb sadpost so here.

I recently got into a fight with a close friend over this stupid behavior of mine because I was getting tired of a thing she was talking about.

On top of that, I'm...kind of feeling like only a few of my friends actually care about my birthday this year, and as I thought of this sentence I started getting teary-eyed.
It should be illegal to feel this shitty two days before my birthday.

Im honestly wondering if Im cut out for writing or art as a profession, it seems like ideas takes longer and longer to come by, and what few I get are rejected outright

Little bit stressed about starting classes tomorrow, namely the kinda-long drive on a kinda-dangerorus highway. Also a bit sad that my break's eaten up but I only have to wait 4 months for another off, so that isn't to bad honestly.